(Ra Uru Hu’s words translated from Russian into English and slightly edited by Amara).
“I always paid attention to Generators more, they are the majority, and they can tune into their Strategy and Authority pretty much immediately, and I thought that the only way I can establish Human Design in the world was by waking few Generators up. And so I spend about 10 years trying to wake up as many Generators as possible on my way. I truly tried hard, and I hoped it would transform their lives. Then I realized: it won’t work as fast as I wanted, it doesn’t work, and maybe I should pay attention to someone else. Of course, I am playing with you right now, but nevertheless.
And I’ve noticed that Projectors and Manifestors are those that I feel commonality with, because we have an open Sacral center. At the same time, they are deeply different, and what I understood about the Types, the most important thing is that I see the aura as a wholesome energetic field which lets us meet with different powers. And when I meet a Generator, I don’t just meet the power, I feel this field around myself, as if it entered my field. Whenever I meet Generators, that’s the first expression that I have. And this embrace, it is never personal. It’s interesting – everything that is connected to the aura of Generators. It is something amazing, embracing, but it’s never personal. They are embracing with their aura any person in front of themselves, and behind themselves as well.
But when it comes to Projectors, it’s very different. I meet a Projector, and it is as if this person has a camera. All of a sudden I start to realize that this is a totally different being. I can’t get rid of that feeling. It’s almost uncomfortable, almost. Uncomfortable in the sense that I am a Manifestor, and I see this aura which is focusing on me. At the same time with Generators in this field around me there is nothing personal, they are just moving with this energy, and the Projectors, they are personal. There is nothing more personal than a Projector. You see that if you are a Projector and you are in the room with two people, you are already creating an enemy. Just think about it. Because this is a great truth for a Projector. If you are a Projector, and there are two people there, one of them will be very upset. This person will be upset because your energy as a Projector can be focused only on one person at a time. That’s what you are capable of. When you are focusing your energy on one person, the other one thinks, oh my god, he’s totally ignoring me. When a Generator is in the room, there might be other 8000 people, and everything is fine because everyone is happy, they are all a part of the crowd. With Projectors it’s different. Only one person at a time. And of course, it’s their power, but it’s also something that gets in their way.
The majority of the world population is not Projectors. 80 percent is not. And it’s more than 5 billion of people who are not Projectors. The majority of those 5 billion is energy Types, and Projectors seem like some sort of parasites which focus on one thing. We are all parasites; I understand it because we all live in this Generators’ life. But Projector is so focused on one that his aura practically burns into you, going straight to your G center. It’s not that it is holding a gun on you, but this gun is pointed at you. And it will never let it go. You can’t let it go.
The only people who truly bring Projectors into the world, are people with open Throats. Because everything what people with open Throats want is to attract attention. All they need for this is Projectors. That’s why as long as they have a Projector, they are always ready to meet with the Projector, “they are looking only at me, they are worried about me, they don’t see anyone else in that room but me”. People with undefined Throats are simply inhaling Projectors, sucking them in. There is nothing you can do. They are looking for attention. You will see this power. And then they have a dilemma. There is always a dilemma. There is no energy here, it’s not an energy Type.
Signature of each Type is some sort of a holy Grail, you are getting out from your garbage bin of what your Non-Self is, from the deep bitterness of a Projector. “I feel bitter that the sun is not shining”. Bitterness is always there. And this holy grail is success
. Generator can go from frustration to satisfaction with the speed of light. Projectors can’t get to success that fast. It’s not an energy Type. it's not like they don't have this inner ability, no, it's not about that. What I like about Projectors is that they are so ignorant about themselves, just like Manifestors. We are not worried about ourselves. The last thing the Manifestor thinks about is to find out who they are. They are not interested. They want to know whether they can influence others.
I am not watching Projectors every day. But when I see them and think what they are, why they are here, what good they can bring… It’s clear with Generators, they are working, they are building houses. Manifestors are pretending that they are surviving. And they all are busy with their energies. And why Projectors are here? This is their movie – to enjoy life. It would be better in the next life. When I was given this knowledge, Projectors were put high up on the pyramid, and I thought – are you crazy? How can you change the hierarchy? How can you put people who don’t know what they are doing, onto the top? They don’t have any power. And they have to be at the top of the hierarchy and manage us, Manifestors? I don’t understand this! The world that we are living in, it’s the world of Generators, for Generators. It’s the most important relations on this earth. And it’s very strange.
Projectors are so unlike anybody else. They are really different, and it’s important to understand it. Type is much deeper than race, than any cultural differences. For me anything which isn’t a Manifestor, is already an alien, something not of this world, it is some construction that I might be able to understand and feel, but I can’t imagine what it is like to be a Generator or a bitter Projector, and especially a Reflector. I have no idea. I have enough problems with the fact that I have to live and play my Manifestor’s game. It seems like Projectors have different time frames. We don’t work in the same time frame with them, we don’t even live in the same Maya with them, they are different. Speed is everything to me, everything to Generators. We are the speediest people out there that you can imagine. We quickly spoil things, we quickly do things. We are energy beings.
And here are Projectors who are looking for this only center, the G-center which they want to suck out. Where is it? Where can I tap into it? And they’ve always been at the bottom of the hierarchy because everything that mattered for everyone, was this: power. That’s why Manifestors ruled the world. And it was glorious. It was very easy to operate that wheel. But we are leaving that age already. It has changed since 1781. Now we are in a new cycle which we constantly talk about, and this is a seven-year cycle of transformation which we are talking about: you need it to get rid of the old information which you were living, which was embedded into you. When you are looking at Projector’s life during this seven-year cycle, this is the deepest marks of differentiation which you will see because Projectors are here for something, they are not here by accident. Because it is connected to their ability to focus on the other – when there is no one else who can truly understand who this “other” is, apart from him. This is the Projector’s gift.
Manifestor doesn’t want to know about themselves, they want to know about their influence. Projectors don’t want to know about themselves, they are not interested in themselves, they are interested in how everyone else work. They are interested to know and recognize what it is like – to recognize something in others. That’s their gift. You also have to see that in order to become a master of something, a master of any system, it takes 7 years. You go to Southern India and you want to learn a musical instrument, you sit with a master, and you ask him how much time you need in order to learn this, and the master will tell you: 7 years. (me: this is interesting! I studied in music school for 7 years!) Seven years to learn anything. If you go to a traditional university, the way the system is built – it takes 7 years (me: actually, in Russia it is 4, 5, or 6 years, and it took me 7 by accident :-)))) So these 7 years are embedded into us everywhere. We go through the 7 years on the cellular level but for Projectors it’s the only road to success.
Success is something that a person is earning over time. There is no such thing as a success over night, not for Projectors. Every Projector, when they are going onto the path of awareness, it takes them minimum of 7 years to become a master of another person. And they came into this world for this. Ultimately, when the hierarchy changes, something which is so important with the nature of Projectors, is the perfection of a Projector, the thing that he will be able to recognize the potential of the other person. And that’s their gift – to recognize the potential of the other, to be able to guide them properly. In our consultancy, in business, we teach that ideally in every group the leader should be a Projector. That’s what they came for.
Projectors don’t come here to be leaders, it’s a totally new role for them. Manifestors are leading now, and Projectors don’t have such power to lead, they are a non-energy type. They can’t lead, guide. They can only guide when they are invited, they are conditioned like that. They can’t be leaders. And the dilemma that Projectors have is that the Projector child which was conditioned as a child, comes into this world with parents who are not satisfied by them, it comes into the world which overburdens them, which wants them to be an active being all their life. They want him to be someone he/she is not. Projectors as children go through hell because they are not recognized. They have the strangest idea about themselves, when it comes to them.
I’ve counted, there are around 70 different types of Projectors. They are the most complicated of all the Types. You might have a Projector with 2 centers defined, or you might have a Projector with 8 centers defined. You can see the chart and automatically guess that it’s a Projector. They are very complicated creatures. But it all brings us back to the same thing because you can’t become a master of your world, your life, master of your ability and understand the other person, something important about them if you will be busy in your life doing something that will destroy it. You have no ability to differentiate who is relevant to your life, who belongs to your life – a Projector who is walking around with a plug-in order to plug into someone, anyone, anywhere. And his Non-Self mind will be trying to tell him – it’s ok, no worries, we will get out of there. When they plug into someone without discernment, it destroys a Projector, because they have to plug to the correct frequency for them.
When I see all these Non-Selves, I am not looking for any traits, I am not looking for the expression of those traits, no. I only feel how the aura is passing by, and I feel this disfunction in the aura. And it’s really obvious for me in Projectors how dysfunctional they are, how dysfunctional the frequency in the aura is. And they have no opportunity to stabilize this frequency because they have no established correct relationships with people. Projectors and Reflectors are very different in how they are dealing with conditioning. Because of the fact that Projectors have a focused aura, they are made to be conditioned to receive the energy. It doesn’t mean that they are made to give away their authority, but they have to take the other person in, the person they meet. And when you focus on the other, you take in the conditioning of the other person as well, and it is not correct for you.
Think about who you are. You have a totally new car which works on gas, and you are using diesel. It’s a good car. You can keep it in your dining room, but you can’t drive it. That’s a Projector for you. One of my favorite things that I say about Projectors is this: imagine what it is like to be a Projector of a car. You have to eat other people. You are looking at some people and say – “mmm, this one is tasty, I’d eat that”. And there are people who you would never want to taste. When you are a Projector, you are taking in people so deeply, - your beloved, children, anyone. Projector is standing in the queue at the supermarket, there are 8 thousand people who are constantly penetrating your aura, they are recognizing you, yes. Everyone recognizes a Projector, but it’s not necessarily a good thing when you are recognized. You might be noticed at the wrong time. All my worry about the nature of a Projector is that their Strategy is so difficult that they are using it only from time to time, and all these invitations, you’ve got to be ready for them. It’s not a gut response – boom, and it’s there, for Projectors the dilemma is not really about how many people recognize you but about each specific person, to put value on each specific person. It’s the ability to recognize the other.
When I look at Projectors for the last 20 years, I see that they have this incredible ability to intake the information, incredible ability, it is embedded into them, the program system analysis. When I am meeting Projectors, whether they are psychologists or astrologers, they still work in some systems so that they can go inside and understand what this other person is made of. And there was no other instrument like Projectors in the human history who can easily penetrate the other person, from head to toes. And you can’t become a master of this Human Design system in one moment because even if you are worried about yourself, you are focused on everyone else. It doesn’t mean that this other will be correct for you. You have an Authority, it is there to navigate you. But the key is to know that you need tools.
This is a subject of success. What does it truly mean? It is connected with the fact that you as a Projector reach a place when it is not an issue anymore – the fact that you are a non-energy Type. In the beginning of this process Projectors practically wake up to what they are here for. And the fact of them being a non-energy Type is always a theme for them, and because of that theme they constantly walk with this socket to plug it in. And it’s destructive for them.
Bitterness is pretty cruel. It changes everything around. Let’s look at these relationships between Projectors and Generators. Generators work very well, they have to work. If they don’t use up their energy, they don’t get satisfaction. That’s why it’s very important to work for them. But also since I am talking here about the Non-self theme of Generators as well, because they are so immersed in this process, they don't know how to live. Projectors are born with this “I don’t want to work, I just want to live.” The child Projector thinks since birth – “I will never work, don’t ask me, don’t tell me, I don’t want to work. I just want to study. I will grow while observing. I don’t want to work”. And of course, they have to work, parents tell them to be Manifestors, and they hate it. There is no alive Projector with a non-self who likes what he does. Oh, I have to work, damn, I have to work. There has to be some way not to work and to plug into someone so that I don’t have to work. I want somebody else to work for me, give me the plug! What a miserable life. Because this leads to addiction, abuse, nightmares, and to all sorts of pain. And there is no sense in that.
The bigger the potential in every person, the harder it is to realize it. Projectors are given an opportunity through their hierarchal position, it’s their potential, and it has to be earned, it has to be earned by a Projector becoming a master of this world. And if you don’t study, you don’t become a master, you don’t understand other people, how they work, you won’t get anything, no success that you were born for. When this energy theme is not your problem anymore, and you don’t run around with this socket to plug it in, Projectors have this incredible sense of self-value. When you are trying to plug into someone, and nobody lets you, and there are so many people around you that you don’t even like, and you feel offended because these people are not right for you. In the beginning they don’t even see you, and you don’t know how to recognize those who are correct for you, they also can’t recognize you.
If you want to see the Type which is spoiled the most, constantly is in the mind, so that you don’t even want to talk to them, that’s Projectors for you. You are given such a mind which constantly tries to see some things, accept them, find things, but this is a mind of the Non-self, it is not needed for analysis at all, it’s a horror movie. And then, look at all this openness where the conditioning comes in, and your mind starts using it. Projector’s complex mind which constantly twists everything, twists this conditioning, starts making these craziest decisions, truly crazy ones. There is nothing crazier than a Projector who makes mental decisions because nothing in their life works without energy. And Projectors, out of all Types, are here not to be alone. They are here in order to guide others, to be relating with other people, to recognize them, and then the others also recognize you.
And you can see the mess on this planet. It looks like they don’t do their job because they are lost in the other. And it's the biggest irony of what it is like to be a Projector, they get lost in the other. And the answer is that the other should be correct, correct to a T. In reality nobody should be as picky as Projectors about who to be with in this life. They have to be very picky. Generators have impersonal aura, it envelopes everyone. Reflectors have a teflon aura, it’s not that important. Manifestors have a closed aura, we are in our own aura. And Projectors pay a really high price when they are not correct, you see?
Generators are here to surrender, and Projectors have to recognize those they know. Every time when a Projector meets someone, they expect something from them. It’s always like that. The more Projectors you meet, the more often you see who YOU are, how you function. But in the long run it all comes down to who is correct for you, and that becomes an authority for you. Projector’s strategy is when you start, for example, a new career, and you have to give it 7 years of your life to become a master, and then, of course, the Projector’s dilemma will be the fact that they will work in these 7 year cycles. They have to live with wrong lovers for 7 years, they have to work at the wrong job for 7 years, because they have to work through this, and in 7 years they have to become a master in that cycle.
But if this is an incorrect person or incorrect job, then you won’t want to work at it for 7 years. We don’t know, because nobody taught us how to meet the other person, how to start a relationship with them, how to interact on the aura level, how to investigate those auras – this peculiarity, this difference – being able to distinguish other people – that’s my favorite key. And if you are a Projector who is focusing on the other person, then it’s important for you to know that this person is basically taking care of you in this life time by providing you its energy, it’s better to be sure that this person is correct for you, so that you know how and what they will be taking care of you with. And that means that you never will receive it because you are not here to search, you are here to recognize when they appear.
For Projectors, for their life, all relationships that they have will never be valuable for them if they are not correct because the most important thing for a Projector’s life is relationships, not group relations, but one on one. You can have 10 of those one-on-one relationships, or four but it is connected with correctness in each of those relationships. You can’t afford being with a wrong person, you just can’t. Because you have no possibility to protect yourself, none whatsoever. Projectors feel so easily how the environment is manipulating them, easily. It takes time.
The most beautiful thing in the relationship between this knowledge and a Projector is that it’s important for Projectors. Everything connected to Human Design is the practicality of it. And everything about the Projector’s process is that they receive the necessary instruments to survive in this world, unlike the energy Types. Every person has a motivation, a theme of motivation which we can find out if we look at the Personality Sun. And when you don’t operate correctly, you don’t operate according to your true motivation. And if your motivation is not correct, then you don’t get the cognitive function which will be correct for you in order to be able to distinguish your true potential.
For Projectors, the Color of Personality is a very important thing. It is of the same value as a gut response for Generators. It is an important instrument for a Projector. In the work that we do in Rave Psychology, we start to understand the nature of Personality Color transferring, and it is how other people take you away from your true motivation. And it works in harmony. For example, you have a Personality Color 1, and you will be working correctly as a Color 4, and if you are 2, then you will be working as a Line 5, if you are 3, then you will be doing the 6. Why am I mentioning this right now? Because it’s important for a Projector to understand this.
Imagine this situation: you are a non-emotional Projector, and someone comes to you and says: “I really would like for you to take this job”. In this moment you have an invitation. If you have a Spleen Authority, it says: “good, let’s go and have dinner.” During dinner you are talking about this and something becomes clear, and it excites the Projector, and they think, oh, this might be a really good relationship with this person, it’s all correct, everything is fine. And maybe all week everything will be fine. But remember that this other person is the Non-Self, and your relationship with them is not a true one. He doesn’t love himself, how can he love the other? Maybe you love him but you are not dealing with Buddha, are you? This is just another Joe or Jane. And you say: “Ok, good, I have an invitation, everything is cool”. Just think about Projector’s dilemma. You can’t continue receiving invitations from that person every single day endlessly. He might just tell you: “Enough, you’ve received the invitation once”.
Generators’ gut response every time gives them the truth. If it is a correct “yes” or “no,” if it is honest, then it’s correct. For a Projector it is connected with only big subjects – love relationships, work, place to live, moving to a different place – that’s where you have to wait for an invitation. The rest is from the conditioning of people you are plugging into. You are plugging into a vitality. But the person whose invitation you answered correctly, doesn’t mean that in 2 weeks you will find out that something is wrong. Because things change. That’s why Projectors depend on this plugging in, and if they don’t have any specific tool to support that relationship in the correct way, it becomes a problem, and it's good if at the end they will find an opportunity to get out of that relationship.
In Rave Psychology I teach people what we call the analysis of the color transference, and this is Projectors’ instrument to understand the motivation which has to rule us. It means to understand that even if Projectors have the best mind for analysis, it doesn’t mean that you can make decisions with your mind. At the same time, each time you have an opportunity to find out whether this person will take you away from your true motivation or will let you accept the correct invitation for you. Because the invitation that you accepted 2 weeks ago and which seemed correct to you at the time, it will be different this time. And Projectors have to have a right to leave the room, to get away, to unplug from the person they plugged into. And that’s one of the dilemmas of the bitterness, because bitterness doesn’t come in the beginning, it comes out from the middle when they established something which was incorrect for them, wrong for them.
Traditionally, the Non-Self of a Projector always makes decisions when it’s too late, when they are completely plugged in, when they already saw that the other person makes their life worse, and it’s already too late. I’d never give this level of knowledge to anyone but Projectors. In order to become a master and function correctly, they have to study a much deeper levels, and that’s why it’s not enough for Projectors to understand Human Design on the surface level. For Manifestors and Generators it is enough to give them a 2 sentence-reading, and everything will be fine. Whereas with Projectors it takes them 7 years. You have to be in this. You have to truly understand how it works. In this point you can see the power.
I don’t want to only speak about negative this time, I want to say something about this wonderful ability of Projectors. People are blind, majority of people – these are sheep which don’t know where they are going, they are ready to do everything, whatever it is, they are lost in maya. At the same time, the magic of any Projector who is correct is to attract to them such people who can accept their aura and change their life. And they can do it. It’s so beautiful when you have such creatures on this planet who can know what way to go, to show the way. There are so many lost souls on this planet, and it’s a special relationship that we have between a Projector and a Generator, ideally… Generator possesses this incredible power, they have to respond, he can live out the beauty of their power when they will respond correctly.
I believe nobody has such opportunity as Generators do. But it’s not my journey. We Manifestors are not like that. We can inform from time to time. And Projectors are made to see the potential and beauty of a Generator. They are here to serve the Generator, to perform services for them. They are those who will be asking you questions. They are those who will be creating invitations for you. They can make Generators respond. But they want something in return, some hope. That’s how it happens. It is a potential honesty, and these relationships can operate only through respect. Each Projector has to learn to ask questions – it’s so valuable. There is nothing deeper than asking questions. I love such questions. when you think of a Sacral session for Generators, when Generators are asked questions, it’s so powerful, it’s so deep. At the same time, the majority of Generators are very unsure what questions to ask and whom.
I remember Mary Ann when she made a list of different questions that can be asked from a Generator. Projectors are natural at this. They will not ask questions which don’t matter. They can recognize you, and they can recognize you as no one else. It’s so uncomfortable with the Non-Self Projector because they simply put a hole in you. It can be so uncomfortable. But when they are correct, when you need them, when it's those who enter basically into you, they go right where it is needed. They focus their small aurical fist and hold on to it. “I got you, I caught you”. And they go through this process, sucking out all sorts of information from you. And you see that if they are correct, if they are right, the questions they might ask are those questions which are very valuable for Generators to respond to. And it doesn’t matter then whether it will be “yeah” or “no.”
It doesn’t mean that Projectors will always ask you the right questions so that you can answer “yes” or “no.” Sometimes this right question will bring “no” as an answer. It means that you just need to know what questions to ask. If you are a Projector and you want to go through a good experiment, always ask questions with Generators. Try it. It takes a great discipline, order. You have to be very sharp in your questions. It’s a great thing. And you will see what people it annoys, who don’t like it – just scratch more on the surface. Because if they don’t want for you to be a Projector, it means they are not honest.
Projectors are such soft toys for humanity, “I have someone who pays attention to me.” If you want for someone to love you, invite a Projector to dinner. They will give you all their attention that you need, and will tell you how wonderful you are. That’s why Projectors are often used, and taken advantage of. Even if your Projector hates you, even if it hates you to the core, the most difficult thing for them will be to say “no” to that attention that you are giving them. It’s very difficult for them to do. You have mutual attraction in the Non-Self. Projector is attached and depends all the time from being plugged into someone, and his partner is attached from his attention because they like when someone loves you, when you are liked by someone, when someone tells you that you are worth something. And it might not be true. They are just holding on to it, and that’s why Projectors get lost in that movie.
In this knowledge Projectors need to go very deep, way deeper than anyone else. They have to understand this all – this is something that gives them power. They get energy from this knowledge. They don’t have natural sources of energy, that’s why this knowledge gives them energy and this power. That’s why when you enter the Projector’s process, it’s truly a big journey. Over and over again I repeat that my dilemma with this knowledge is to teach it to the adults because I really worry about Projectors. Because they don’t have this instant transition as Generators. It takes completely different approach, continuous approach, and you need a true dedication to this knowledge. And it’s not that simple for Projectors to change moment after moment. And success for them comes as they get this understanding, concept after concept, how it all works. The mere understanding gives them this power. Every time when they understand it more, they go deeper and deeper into this system, they become the masters of how to look at the world.
Strategy is a secondary thing. Authority is always there, and you have to learn to trust this Authority because in the beginning it’s the only thing which will protect you from others. When you begin your process in Human Design being a Projector, you have people in your life, and it’s normal. Of course, those people in your life are a problem for you. They are keeping you in this old conditioning, they don’t want for you to change, they accept that you will be with them, they don’t want for you to study them, to test them, they want to receive your attention, but they want to receive your attention on their terms, not on yours. That’s when you become those people’s slaves. And it’s so sad. That’s why it takes really a deep commitment to really dive into this knowledge.
Projectors are my only students who go into this knowledge so deep that you don’t see them. And they will come to me, return to me, but they have to be truly immersed with this knowledge because it is really important to study layer after layer, until their time comes, until it all is revealed. This is the mastery I am talking about. And there are questions. It’s important to know how to ask questions. That’s the mastery of this knowledge. To know how to ask the questions is the great goal for Projectors. They are here to ask the questions that give them power.
Now I want to talk about Projectors who have Split Definition. When you have a Split, and that’s about 45 percent of people, what does it mean? It means that you have this fundamental openness which always looks for connection, always looks for a bridge. There is a strategy of open centers in the Non-Self, but when you have one split like that, it’s the deepest conditioning in that bridge, and this person constantly looks for this bridge, and it sees only this.
Do you remember the genetic imperative that we all have? It’s the fact that we are made genetically in a way to get attracted to something that is opposite of us in order to survive. (me: And by survive I mean repopulate the planet, that’s how we survive, we live in our children). And since we are attracted to something that is different from us, and if you have this split, then this openness which waits for this bridge all this time, means that you want this person to appear in your life. The problem for a Projector is that they are constantly trying to ponder and understand where is this resource which gives us what they need. But if a Projector has this split in definition, it can be simply an obsession. And a person with any split always starts to express it through blaming. This is the most favorite way of expressing bitterness for Projectors – through blaming.
Let’s imagine that you are a Projector, and all you need is to connect this split – this one gate, this one activation. This is something that you are blaming yourself for, when something doesn’t work out for you. If you don’t have something, and you are blaming yourself for not having this, you will be looking for it all your life. You will switch to anyone who has it hoping that this person will do something for you. And obviously it doesn’t happen. And you blame yourself – “I don’t have it, that’s why I am not worth anything, that’s why I am not good enough. And if I’d have this, everything would be just great”. That’s why Projectors with a Split Definition who need only this one Gate for connection, are always bitter towards themselves. They don’t worry about the whole world, they are only bitter about themselves because of what they look like, how they behave, what they are, etc. and they are constantly blaming themselves, trying to find this wholesomeness.
And there is another side of this coin. There is a Projector who needs more than one Channel for connecting the split. There are many Projectors like that. They are blaming others. They don’t blame themselves, they don’t know how to blame themselves. They blame everyone for something that doesn’t work. And the more they blame others, the deeper their bitterness becomes. And you will see since Projectors have this gift of recognition, the Non-Self theme of a Projector is ready to accept all those non-self things which can be blamed. Guilt, shame, it’s something. And it is all coming back to the same old dilemma. If you are a Generator and you have a split, you can use your Authority step by step, and you won’t end up at the same spot as a Projector. If you are a Projector, it depends on the energy source that you have. Besides, there is a sense that you are missing something. And when you always plug into the wrong things, psychologically it will be much harder than physically. You will never see things the way they are.
Blame is an incredible thing. There is no guilt, no shame. If I wake up in the morning in melancholy, I don’t think it’s someone’s fault. But what if I did? Projectors have to be able to get away from this bitterness, and for Projectors with a split it’s really difficult. Because the other person is so important, and it’s always the wrong other. I knew so many Projectors and how they chose wrong partners for them. They are doing it badly because they are not here to find partners, they are here to be invited, to be found, they are here to be respected. Those Projectors I knew of were simply plugged in, that’s all. That’s all you can say about these relationships: “I am just plugged in. I have dinner, breakfast, lunch, I am plugged in, they buy me clothes every year, and I will be staying plugged in like this”.
This is so silly in terms of people, it’s so easy for them to be fools like that. I know, I’ve watched my own movie. I think this person will be this, and that person ends up being something completely different. You can’t trust the Non-Self of these people, you can’t. You can only hope. I hope. There is a chance that they can screw everything up, but there is also a chance that they will make it right. It’s a disease. These are people who blame the whole world, blame others, schools, government, parents, children, work. Countless blame. And it’s just a way to find an explanation to their own bitterness. I am bitter, and it’s all because of them, you are to blame for it. This is a disease of people with splits. And especially it is Projectors’ problems if they have a split and have this openness, and they are not aware of it.
Projectors can be such wise people, they know everything that happens around them, and they can teach others about what is happening in life. But they stop respecting people, they stop seeing things. This plugging in becomes everything to them. Then everything becomes a well for them, the source of it all. And everything in their life is connected to people, with this special relationships. You have to really be picky, you have to be so wise about who you let into your life. Projector screams with their presence “I have no juice!”
Do you know how powerful you are? How attractive you are? Projectors are deeply attractive people whether they want it or not. They will always receive attention. Maybe it will not be the attention they like, we are still talking about the Non-Self here, and that’s why they will be getting all kinds of attention. And Projectors lie in relationships. They can’t let themselves be honest. It’s too big of a risk. They are not honest in relationships. You see then what kind of relationship is possible there. There is no value in these relationships. You see, nobody gains anything in those relationships.
Each Projector is conditioned, as a group, and they are deeply lost in this maya. And there is no blame in this. In order to understand this knowledge, it’s important to understand that it’s hierarchal. Only some people receive a direct access to it. I have Projectors who already went through this 7-year cycle who understand. It takes time. It takes generations to have this environment of Projectors who demonstrate this potential, who work. This is work, and it brings us to the base of this knowledge which says: this process can be completed only by you, nobody can do this for you. It doesn’t work in you, it all doesn’t happen in you. Nobody can grab your hand and lead you away from there.
You have to see that Projector has to first find themselves, find this deep desire for the truth. Nobody is interested in the truth as Projectors are. It’s their thing. And think about how many Projectors guide people and lie. They are guiding by lies because lies are much more successful than the truth. When someone does a Reading with angel’s cards, they are much more successful than when they speak about devils.
My worry about Projectors is bringing me back to the basic interaction. Look at Projectors in the context of this split and see all the pressure which is directed towards them, if they don’t know how to make a decision. If you won’t find correct people in your life, then everything in your life will be wrong, it will all be wrong. There is no exception. Yes, I have this person, it’s not that bad, I can’t reject him because he is giving me everything. But it’s not about them. It’s about you. It’s the most egotistical knowledge because it’s about you. When there is someone and you have to reject them, you will reject them because it’s not about them, it’s about you. It doesn’t matter if they are useful for you, if they feed you, etc. It doesn’t matter. It’s about you. If you are projecting yourself in the wrong way, nobody will do this for you, nobody will be taking care of you. It’s a myth. We are here only to take care of ourselves and not to get lost on the surface.
It’s something holy for a Projector to stand in their own Authority, and be able to say “no.” «NO» is a great word. I like this word, it’s really cool. I have a defined Ego (Heart center), and I like to say “no.” “Yes” means “work”, and “no” means “no work”. That’s when they leave me alone. It doesn’t mean that you will be saying “no” all the time. They always come back. That’s the seduction of power. Projector doesn’t understand how important they are for the other.
As soon as you say “no,” they are constantly in confusion, it’s a problem for them. It shouldn’t have been like that! You had to just plug in, and then everything would be good. Why be upset? They want your attention, they want to use you until a Projector understands, it’s their biggest access, it’s something that lets other people plug in. Because they like the attention, they just love it. Don’t we all love it? We do. But you don’t receive attention from Generators, no, because there is nothing personal here, it’s just a cute embracing aura. You can be there, but they are here by accident, they are just talking, these auras, that’s all. But it’s not a Projector. They have such a bad feeling of themselves, the feeling of self-worth, they can’t say “no” because they think it’s not correct for them, because they are afraid that they won’t be able to plug in. And what they need is to understand – somebody wants their attention, somebody will love their attention, somebody needs their attention.
There is a myth that Projectors in their Non-Self suck energy from others. In reality, everybody works like that in the Non-Self. In reality, the other one wants this attention, and tries to hook them onto the leash because he wants this attention, because his attention is more important for them, and they are afraid to lose it more than others. And without this attention they don’t feel self-worth, they don’t feel that somebody loves them. And that’s why Projectors are being used. And whatever stands between them and the whole is this ability to raise the hand and say “no, I will plug in only when I want, I won’t lose anything, I won’t.” And you know, when they do it, they learn something very important, they start to see their power, they start to see that nobody will get away from them. If you did this once, they will never leave you. Even if you are 1000 kilometers away, they don’t leave you, they won’t sleep at night thinking that maybe that’s the attention that they need. When you say “fuck off” to them, you start to recognize who you are, that you are valuable, that you have to be treated accordingly. And this is actually pretty nice to say “no, not now, don’t approach me now.”
That’s how simple it is. But it comes from the inner truth. You have to be OK with yourself, you have to start loving yourself because you are ruling your life. Nobody can live it for you, no genetic imperative, none of these tricks. You are ruling your life, you are guiding your life according to your Authority. And only out of that Authority you can raise your hand and say “no.” And this is a holy thing – to let everyone else wait, to send them away until they recognize you. And if it doesn’t happen, keep shooing them away, saying “no.” There will be others.
And the same about the emotionality. If you want to see spoiled people, it’s that split in the Emotional Projector. It’s like when you are on the Titanic, you have to sink with the ship. Emotional Projector plugs in at the wrong time. if it plugs in at the wrong time, then it won’t be a successful plug. Emotional Projector being high up on the wave plugs into somebody thinking that they received something. Then they wake up in the morning, and it’s not paradise. They will take into their life such people that mother Theresa will seem like an angel. These are very dangerous people, that’s how unpredictable they are.
You can’t play with emotions. There is no truth in the moment. It’s so hard for them to not let go themselves in the emotional moment. Somebody pisses you off, and this emotional bubble is ready to burst. It’s good if you don’t kill at that moment. It’s difficult not to kill, not to scream. All these regrets the next day about why did I do this, this bitterness, blame…. But there is another side of the scale. You don’t want to wake up with an emotional Projector-partner who is in a bad mood. You wake up next to the monster. Your life is at risk. Because you see that it depends on the other person, they walk on the street and penetrate you with their focus, and if this emotional bomb wakes up in the morning, this zoom is right into you. It’s not a strategy which says “I am slowly gradually going to work through everything». No, in the moment they are not aware, and when they are next to you, they might break your G center with their hammer.
You know what it is. I know, I’ve lived for many years with such people. Once I was driving with an emotional partner, and we turned onto the wrong road. We had to drive towards Hamburg, and we had very little time, we were late for the meeting. I am very non-emotional, and all of a sudden I feel this emotional energy in my body. I am sitting next to the person, and it’s such an angry emotional Manifestor, and this anger starts transferring to fury, and it is all coming into me. I don’t even want to watch this movie. We finally found the right road, and the moment we were on the right road, I think that this emotional person would just discard this all, and relax. It took 2 hours for this energy in his body to finally cool down.
And this was a huge lesson for me. Because the first time in this process I understood that awareness or clarity will not stop the emotional wave. You can’t just simply stop it. It doesn’t happen like that. This movement has to finish on its own. And emotional Projectors can be incredible Projectors, but you require patience. There is no truth in the moment. Projectors with the split always has to send others away first, especially if they are emotional. It’s important to understand what it is like to be emotional. It means, nobody has a right to strike a deal with you, to get access to you in the moment, nobody. Because you can’t make a decision in the moment. And it’s a fundamental law of what it is like to be an emotional person. Don’t do things in the moment, don’t be in a hurry, wait.
And as a Projector you have to understand that when you say “no” to the other person, you send them away, and they don't leave, don’t worry, you’ll have another chance to meet with this person on another place of your wave. And that’s the biggest dilemma of the Non-Self Projectors who are emotional – it’s the fact that they emotionalize their blame, they become hysterical. They are made to be one-on-one with people, and these relationships one-on-one always free all these blames. And then they pay with the consequences. They have to live with people in such a way that other people never saw them. If emotional Projectors don’t wait for their wave, others will never trust them.
For me, being the person who is doing this intellectual work, it is a privilege to work with Projectors. I love them very much. But it’s not enough. There has to be a deep dedication to this process. If you don’t reach the mastery towards the world, you’ll never be able to do it. It is some kind of unpractical statement. We really lack true good questions. During the last 20 years of my teaching when I was teaching this knowledge, I can count on the fingers of my one hand truly good questions. The question is always an opening to support – and the true question can awaken, transform the person.
Projectors are not here to discuss mundane plans. They are here to ask the right questions because it gives them this gift of opportunity to soak this in, to soak the other one in. And when there is this other one in front of them, they can truly understand this person, give this power a specific question, at least open this opportunity for the person to respond this or that way to this question. These are people who are asking questions, the answers are irrelevant. There is no universal answer, nobody comes to a Projector for answers. There is only unique truth for each of us, and each person has a right to a direct question, and not a homogenized one. It’s not a generalization like “how are you feeling today,” and it’s a great gift which is there in Projectors who know exactly what questions to ask, and this is a question which is not in the itinerary, not in the schedule. This is the question which grows out of the other person’s awareness and that’s the Projector’s role.
Projector doesn’t guide us saying what we should do, that’s not how they lead. Projectors guide by asking the right questions, that’s all. It is their potential. And that’s what I hope for. It’s a great gift. This is an outer Authority, it all is connected with Projectors. You know, this is like a doctor who knows exactly what kind of questions to ask you for you to understand what this patient needs. This is a question. And it’s not just an accidental question, it’s a question which lets you to go inwards and open up the potential. And since Projectors have this gift of recognition, they don’t just recognize the person’s potential, they also can recognize and open those questions which are needed, that’s how deep it can be.
If you are a Projector, you can ask the right questions and you will succeed. That’s what it is. It is for living your life, your role, and it’s clear that there are so many variations – Profiles, Designs, Motivations, and if you don’t know something, then you better go get some courses to study it because if you are a Projector, it’s the base of your process. You have to study as much as you can. The more you study, the deeper you become.
Out of all the things I value about this is this uniqueness, and that’s why Projectors are here. They are here to recognize this great potential in the other, to bring it out by asking the questions. You can guide, you can open the doors as Projectors, but you can’t take by the hand and lead. And Generators with this pure energy need this guidance. And Projectors more than anyone else know what this energy is because all their life depends on whether they have this source of energy or not. That’s why these questions have to touch the core of what vitality of life is. It’s their gift – to even out, to attune this great Generator power. The majority of Generators are homogenized, and it can be changed. That’s why we will continue to give discounts to Projectors so that it is easier for them to study, we will teach them as much as we can, teach them to ask those questions.”